17 May 2006

Please let me shoot the messenger

Holy CRAP! Could this week (weeks?) get any worse? I just received an email telling me that a cousin is pregnant. That's wonderful, I'm happy for her, really. It's how I was told that sent me reeling.

The subject line said, "fwd: wonderful news" and it was the original email from the cousin, forwarded to me from a relative - a very very close relative - who totally should have known better. There was no warning, no, "this might be hard for you, but I knew you'd want to know" or anything remotely hinting to the fact that it might be painful for me to receive an email like that. This relative and I just had a conversation about this not so long ago, about how difficult it is to hear other women's pregnancy announcements. Even though I might be incredibly happy for them, and wanting them to get pregnant, it's still hard to hear.

It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside to know that this very very close relative actually listens to what I say and takes it to heart.


B'sha'a tova to my cousin and her husband. I really am happy for them, and I hope she has a happy, healthy pregnancy.


At 17/5/06 6:40 a.m., Anonymous Truly Tested said...

you should be commended on your patience. I would have throttled her. but then, I haven't told people what we're going through so I have less of an excuse.

At 17/5/06 4:32 p.m., Blogger Robber Barren said...

I'm so sorry, projgen. I totally know the feeling.

At 17/5/06 6:28 p.m., Blogger ms. x said...

So sorry. I usually have to fight through extreme jealousy at the news of someone I know being pregant. Then I cry. Then eventually I am happy for them...well, usually.

I'll never forget the day that I found out that my estranged (long story) sister-in-law was pregnant. I spent most of the day vomiting (a rather extreme reaction, I know, but fully warranted by our history).

Even though neither my husband nor I have spoken to her in going on 4 years, she still feels it necessary to include us on her massive 'Look! Look at MY baby!' email list so that we can be reminded regularly that she has a cute little baby and we have (and will most likely always have) nothing.

Oh, did I mention that the last conversation she and mr. x had was about how we couldn't have children?

Did I also mention that I'm suffering from Clomid Rage and will probably look back on this comment in a few days and feel very foolish for posting it?

Eh, well, take solace in the fact that I'm a bitter raging b*tch and you're not. ; )


At 17/5/06 7:35 p.m., Blogger Just another Jenny said...

People just don't get it. I had an email bomb myself this week. It would be nice to at least have a warning.

At 17/5/06 11:31 p.m., Blogger projgen said...

ms. x. - never feel foolish for what you do/say/feel/think in the midst of Clomid Rage! And I'm so sorry that your SIL is being so horrid about this. Maybe my latest post will help...

And I'm sorry the rest of you all know what it feels like. None of us should have to know what this feels like.


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